Saturday, 20 September 2014
To change or to remain?
Sunday, 14 September 2014
Dear social media addicts (sometimes known as STALKERS)
"But whenever someone turns to the Lord, the veil is taken away. For the Lord is the spirit, and wherever the spirit of the Lord is, there is FREEDOM. So all of us who have had that veil removed can SEE and REFLECT the glory of the Lord. And the Lord, who is the spirit makes us more and more like Him as we are changed into His glorious image."
I got these impactful verses from a sermon video I watched online (I'll post the link below). It's like a slap on my face when I listened to it. Because all this while, I think most of us, including myself, have been trying hard to present ourselves as perfect figures who has it all, be it in social media or even real life. We work hard to impress others when they see our Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook profile. Wanting to be seen as pretty, rich, smart, or wise is our greatest desire.
Excessive focus is put onto the "perfect" lives of others. We are trapped in social comparison and it makes us feel bad of ourselves. I know what am I talking about because I've been through it. Even now, Im still struggling.
I feel like screaming to your face now if you are upset for not looking that pretty as the girl in the Instagram. I feel like scolding you now if you are contemplating on others glorious lives, and thinking hard before you tweet because you wanna be perceived as wise and you are longing for dozens of retweet.
But let me ask you a question.
DON'T YOU FEEL TIRED??
You are not a model or celebrity.You are covering your face with a layer of airbrush perfection, until you can't even see the amazing and hopeful plans God has for you. You are too busy looking at other people's lives, what they are up to, but you fail to claim the glory God has for you today.
I feel like cursing now but you get me right?
Now get up from your bed, hide your phone or laptop from your sight, and do what you are supposed to do now. This is the day! This is the day that the Lord has made for YOU.God is eager to show you great things He has prepared for you. But He can only show it when you unveil yourself and unblock your sight from these false fantasies. See and show the real things. Do the real things. If now you are in the season of being a student, study well for God's glory. Do what you are supposed to do with excellence.
If you are struggling with addiction to social media and constant comparison, I tell you that you can only break free from it and claim VICTORY over it if you are really serious about it. Tell God desperately with all your heart that you wanna be released from this chain and I believe that He will renew your strength everyday.
What I did was, I fasted from social media for a few days (we tend to compare ourselves with others via social media), and fixed only 30 minutes everyday on it. It is a painful struggle but you will overcome it. There are days when Im unable to control myself, but it's okay. Always bear in mind that what you feed will grow, and what you starve will die. I have deleted my Instagram earlier this year, because I was addicted to stalking 'beautiful' people and you can do it too if you need to. Im not asking you to delete all of your social media accounts, but if you spend too much time on it and it impairs your daily functioning, emotions and spirit, then you know what you ought to do man.
Personally, I can say that I spend less time on Facebook now. When you no longer have the "need" to login to your Facebook, you will feel like a boss. Seriously, because it no longer has power over you. And my next monster to be shut out is Youtube. Urghh, Youtube is very entertaining to watch btw..
So stalkers, if you wanna live a bigger life, now is the time to uncover your raw and uncut life. I urge you to compare less and contemplate more on God's glory. NOW is the glorious days for you. Stop slumbering in your sweet history and thinking "these good old days...". Today is your good new day! His spirit will fill us with fruitfulness and glory as it says, "And the Lord, who is the spirit makes us more and more like Him as we are changed into His glorious image."
I hope what I am trying to convey here not only touches your heart, but slaps you in the face like what I have experienced. You are meant for a glorious, victorious and fruitful life. Don't let the enemy rob and destroy you. But YOU, have power over them because the spirit of God is in you.
The Sermon
Friday, 12 September 2014
20 Facts About Me (p/s: some may be subjected to change)
I LOVE playing sports, especially those sports where I can be rough. Basketball (the most favourite one), hockey, football (the most tiring because of the huge field), futsal, and netball (I always fantasise myself as a ballerina whenever I play netball, don't know why).
(probably the worst bruises I got so far from playing futsal)
During my post SPM break, I opened my house to teach those primary school kids at my longhouse. Sort of tuition, and I really enjoyed teaching them because they were so enthusiastic in learning and even until now, whenever they see me at kampung during my hols, they will always ask me "When can we do tuition again?".. So sweet of them and I always hope that Im on a long break so that I can do this again. I admit that this experience inspire me to fight for quality education in rural area. (future activist maybe?)
(with my cute nieces during Christmas Eve 2013)
Im broke now and I'll be eating mixed rice at Pasar everyday hopefully.
Dream of being a vlogger. Just wait for it. heheh
Speaking about vlogging, my favourite youtubers are Jenn Im from Clothesencounters and Michelle Phan.
Jenn Im.
Michelle Phan.
Somehow, I have this natural urge to act like a mak Datin whenever me and my friends enter a high end shop or when we try on shades.
Dream of being a founder of an elite boarding school in Sarawak.
I love anything that has banana and chocolate in it.
Friday, 5 September 2014
She's Still a Conquerer (Part 1)
Trying to fill in the emptiness
The emptiness once filled with treasures
Those treasures excited her loved ones
Proud were they of her
She always knew that those giant mountains were conquerable
Since young she's always a conquerer
But things changed as she aged
She realised
there were more conquerers in this world
Some were more dexterous in sailing
Some were as good as her
Well, just good...
nothing much...
when compared to the greater conquerers
Now she thought she knew it
"Maybe I can't be the best sailor in this whole galaxy"
"But I can be the best for myself"
No pressure
Living comfortably in her own deck
Telling lies to herself that,
"You can't be the best every time"
But,
there's no interesting story in her life
Life's just a flat and smooth road for her
No struggles to overcome
No treasures won
Her muscles were weak
Her ship was wrecked
Hopeless was her world
She couldn't take it anymore
She couldn't live like this forever
No adventure, no discovery
Nothing gained...
All this time
She chose to be blinded from this truth
The truth was well-hidden in the basement of her ship
For letting it out means hurting herself
And she didn't want to be hurt.
But now,
She chooses to see it.
Thursday, 22 May 2014
Happy breakie!
And some selfies on the last day of Sem 2!
Saturday, 26 April 2014
LESS IS ALWAYS MORE...FULFILLING! : simplicity and humility
These are great leaders who dress simply, not needing fancy jewellery, expensive cars or big houses. How humble they are. It really inspires me a lot when seeing leaders who put others before themselves, who give their wealth to their people first and be content with the left-overs they have. Their perspective of life is so much different. They are no longer attached to the wants of this world which will fade off one day but instead they have security within themselves. They are not afraid of being called poor materialistically, because they know life is more than that.
There are some leaders in Malaysia that I admire too because of their humility. For instance, DS Idris Jala. He's the CEO of PEMANDU and has a great record when he managed to bring up MAS again after the company has faced couples of issues. Even though he has achieved a lot, a speaker from a summit that I attended, who was one of Idris' staffs talked about how humble DS Idris was. He didn't drive fancy car to work and he is someone who loves a simple life.
Nurul Izzah Anwar is one of my favourite people too. She wears veil and like what I said earlier, no fancy jewellery, or heavy makeup or big hair. What comes first is the people, not her own interest. How amazing!
I want to learn more about these humble people after learning one of the Psychology lessons which is about self-actualisation. A self-actualised individual is someone whose needs have been fulfilled or in this case, who needs nothing. (of course they need clothes, food and shelter.. duhh). What I mean here is that they do not need fame, or wealth. They already know what matters the most. They are secured with themselves and don't need to please people all the time. Life will be less stressful too.
I wanna make it my goal to live a simple life. Not concern about brands or others' thoughts on me. It's tiring to meet people's expectations when actually you don't really care about it. As long as you know who you really are and stay true to yourself.
~isew_usat
(because I'm taking a break from my assignment, and has nothing better to do) :D
Friday, 25 April 2014
the forgotten dreams
Wednesday, 26 March 2014
POST-SPM
Hi everyone! I know this may be very late for me to share with u guys about my journey after SPM. But, I hope that through my story, it may help you to decide on what u wanna do in the future.
So now, you've got your SPM result. It may be excellent, devastating or just cukup2 makan. Well, whatever you have earned, just be grateful and accept it with an open heart. There's nothing you can do about it anymore right? So now is the time for you to take a deep breath and MOVE ON!
Probably now you have applied for scholarships, UPU or still applying for it. If you have decided on what you wanna take up for your tertiary education, CONGRATULATIONS! But if you are like me, who changed my choices of courses almost everyday, then I think you better continue reading this post of mine till the end.
So here's my story. Since I was a kid, I have always dreamt of being a medical doctor or a dentist. I am not really sure why but maybe because I wasn't really exposed to other careers back then. Then I entered secondary school(SainsKu), where I was the most confused person ever. One day I wanna be a pharmacist, during my high-spirited day I wanna be a military doctor, then the next day an accountant, petroleum engineer and so on. And I know that some of my friends knew how indecisive I was. And things got worse when I applied for scholarships.
I remember I applied for Bank Negara(BNM), PETRONAS, MARA, Swinburne, YTN and UPU. For BNM, I applied for Pharmacy as my first choice and Accountancy as the second one. And guess what? I didn't receive a call from them. Sedih2.. Maybe I should apply for Kijang instead of Kijang Emas in the first place. But it's fine. At least I'm not gonna study Pharmacy for my undergraduate (Chemistry and I, the teacher was great, but I don't think so I have genuine interest in it). Then for MARA, I applied for Pharmacy too. I got the scholarship but I wanted to change it into Medicine. Unfortunately, I couldn't because there was no empty place anymore. And I would tell you why I chose PETRONAS instead of MARA in the end. Then for Swinburne and YTN I main2 jer. And for UPU,as cliché it may be, I applied for PASUM and UNIMAS Sains Hayat.
Alright, let me tell you first that it has always been my dream to pursue my studies overseas specifically in the States and UK. Why States? Because I wanna meet David Archuleta!! Hehe, I was an avid fan of Archie. But what came in my way was Pharmacy in the UK(MARA) and Accountancy in NZ (petronas). So it was time to decide. If you are indecisive like me, I advise you to list down the adv and disadv of your choices.
Pharmacy:
Adv: In the UK ( I think this is the only adv) hehe
Disadv: Not interested in Chemistry
No secured job after graduating
Accountancy:
Adv: business and economics related, more to corporate world, help me in setting up my business and establishing a private boarding school in the future, 5 years bond with Petronas
Disadv: never studied acc before(risky), NZ(the last place in my mind)
After getting advices from my family and through prayer, I finally decided to go for PETRONAS. This step was the biggest leap of faith I've ever taken in my life. I just prayed to God, if this is according to your will, then let it be happen without obstacles. And until now, there's nothing that comes in my way which is directing me away from this path. Maybe there is, like I did badly for my class test one time, but nahh.. I believe that may be a reminder from God to be humble and keep trusting in Him. But so far so great. Now I realised, maybe God wants to place me in NZ because He believes NZ would be a condusive place for Him to prepare me for my purpose. And why accountancy? I don't know yet. But what I know, I do have the interest in business and making money. And having hope in God just makes me more optimistic in life.
I can't agree more with the saying "everything happens for a reason".
So how is my story? I hope it's not that boring and I wish you can get something from it. So my final words for you:
1)if u are confused about your future, list down the adv & disadv(do research about the courses)
2)see which one has more adv, seek advice from teachers and family
3)and most importantly, pray for it. Ask God what is HIS WILL, because He has a special purpose for you in life.
4)and don't forget, study what you like ya..
Love,
Isew
Friday, 7 March 2014
Empower women = Empower the world
Saturday, 15 February 2014
CONFESSION OF A PROUD GIRL
Yesterday, after the church service, I approached my sister in Christ. I really thanked God for giving me the courage to open myself and share my weakness and problems with her. I told her that this week was very challenging for me. I felt like a failure and studying became a compelled thing to do. I studied simply because others were studying. There's no joy in it and for sure the knowledge could not be retained. As a result, I was stressed out.
I think the main reason of me feeling unhappy with myself is my refusal to be humble. My head just gets big. I refused to be humble before God especially. I'm hiding my addictions and hatred from Him. I pretend as if my spiritual life is okay when in reality it's broken. And do you know why it's broken? Because I seldom come to Him with a humble and vulnerable spirit. When we are proud before God, it will be shown in other areas of our life. We dislike others, we are lazy in our studies and people cannot see the joy that comes from God in you! And how can I let others know about God when I am living that way?
I love one verse in Isaiah that says, "…I live in the high and holy place with those whose spirits are contrite and humble. I restore the crushed spirit of the humble and revive the courage of those with repentant hearts."
God wants us to come to him with a humble and vulnerable heart. He wants you and me to come to Him with a naked spirit, not hiding anything. This shows that God is longing to have an intimate relationship with us. So what can we do? My sister told me to ask God. Ask him to change our hearts and teach us to love Him genuinely. That is what He wants and I want. Because when we love Him, obeying His will in our life would be our greatest desire. Reading the Bible or singing praises will no longer be a burden, but a joy.
Therefore my friend, it's okay to put your defences down and be broken before God. Always ask Him to bestow you with a loving heart. Believe that He will heal you. And you better trust Him because when you are madly in love with Him, everything in your life will fall into places perfectly and you will flourish and bear fruits. You will also tend to recover faster from disappointment. And most importantly, remain in Him and He will remain in you.
This verse speaks for itself:
John 15:4 Remain in me and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me.
John 15:7 But if you remain in me and my words remain in you, you may ask for anything you want, and it will be granted! When you produce much fruit, you are my true disciples. This brings great glory to my Father.
JUST ASK AND BELIEVE!
May God bless you.
Saturday, 8 February 2014
Why do we need to be excellent? Because He is.
I was born and raised in a Christian family. I attended church and Sunday school faithfully when I was a child. I am very blessed for God has revealed Himself to me since my tender age. Everyday, I learnt more about Him. What He did for me when I don't deserve it. And things that please His heart.
Yes,there are times when I doubt His presence and faithfulness. I often question myself what is the main purpose of my life. Why do I need to excel in my studies? And why do I have to do good deeds? Why do I need to bother about others' issues when they are not affecting my life? Why God wants me to be the best? The answer is; because He is the best. And we are made in His image. So, we are His reflection, a reflection of excellence.
Yet, God is extremely patient with me in revealing who He is and redirecting me towards Him when I fall apart countless times.
He humbles me to submit my everything into His might hands. To not trust my own ability but His unfathomable wisdom. He fills me with Holy Spirit to do and say the right things. He sends Godly people into my life to correct my flaws. He alters the way I think by putting His thoughts into mine. It's no longer about me. It's about pleasing Him and sharing the Gospel through my lifestyle. And what kind of lifestyle? Full of excellence and humility.
I'm not a religious person. But I believe in encouraging others and sharing what I can. God is strengthtening and preparing me for a future with hope. He is preparing something big for me. Not for my own interest,but to fulfill His plan in my life.
Now,don't look down on yourself. God has a greater plan for u. Work hard everyday to grow in your faith by meditating on His words. Verily, His words are guidance on how we should live our life because He does not want us to live a life of regrets. He wants the best for us. Step out of your comfort zone, go for something bigger. Help others to discover God and His amazing love. Pray everyday that He will reveal His unfailing love in your life. Life is more than yourself.
Monday, 27 January 2014
HOLIDAYSS
I'm gonna do this really quick as I am actually waiting for my taxi to LCCT.
So, I'm going back to Sarawak for CNY holidays!!! (Yayyyy)
Ok. Let me be real. Apparently I am not really excited to go back this year because I feel that my class just started, then BAM holidays again.
alright. I know I should be grateful for having this great opportunity to see my family again. Please Lord give me the strength to spend this holidays productively with my loved ones. hehe
And for your information, I'm starting to get busier this year with SATs (skills and applications task) and assignments. Guess there's no more going to Sunway Pyramid every weekend. FOR MY FUTURE. -.-"
But there's one thing that I am really looking forward to this hols, I'm gonna celebrate CNY with my best friend, Apple and her family. I can't wait to visit my old school and childhood friends. (awww, miss them)
OK. So final say from me. Enjoy your break and do something beneficial.. Bye!!!
Sunday, 26 January 2014
favourite quotes
- Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
- True greatness begins with humility.
- Some people dream of success, while others wake up and work at it.
- When you feel like quitting, think about why you started.
- The more you do something, the easier it becomes.
- Now all glory to God, who is able, through His mighty power at work within us, TO ACCOMPLISH INFINITELY MORE THAN WE MIGHT ASK OR THINK. wow!(Ephesians 3:20)
- Put God first in your life and all of your other priorities will fall into places.
- Work with enthusiasm, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.(Ephesians 6:7)
- Don't let your heart be troubled. Trust in God. Trust also in me. (John 14:1)
- Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up in honor. (James 4:10)
- And now dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true and honourable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. (Philippians 4:8) <POSITIVE THINKING>
- Humility is not thinking less of yourself but thinking of yourself less.
- Never bend your head. Always hold it high. Look at the world straight in the face. ~Hellen Keller
- Do what you are afraid of to gain self confidence.
- To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. (Matthew 25:29)
- Don't copy the behaviour and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God's will for you, which is good, pleasing and perfect.(Romans 12:2)
- Avoid doing things that can hinder you from achieving your goals.
- Guna sepenuhnya masa yang terluang. Masa terlalu sedikit dan terbatas. Justeru, fokus hanya kepada pelajaran dan peperiksaan. Ini bermakna perkara yang boleh ditangguhkan selepas peperiksaan mesti ditangguhkan. (Dr Shukri Abdullah)
- Big dreams need big effort.
- Study very hard because what is precious does not come easily.
- JUST DO IT!
Friday, 17 January 2014
I AM ANGRY
Because the world doesn't allow me to do things I want
To be the next Prime Minister
Or to be simply extraordinary
I am angry
Because the world doesn't allow me to eat that extra piece of cake
For I will be called 'ugly'
When I gain extra pounds
I am angry
Because the world emphasises more on my looks
What I'm gonna wear and how I'm gonna sit
Instead of the power of my brain
I am angry
Because the world sets an unrealistic standard of beauty
Flawless skin and shiny hair
Fair complexion and pointy nose
I am angry
Because the world keeps on exploiting women
Treating them like objects
To satisfy its own greed
I am angry
Because I allowed myself to be deceived by the world
Chasin' after wind
Running after things that are worthless
I am angry
Because I was so foolish
For letting the world define what beauty is
And wasting my energy
In pursuing these deceptions
I am angry
Because I think too much about others' thought of me
When all that matters is
What I think of myself
I am angry
For I have focused too much on how I look
When I can use my energy
To make a difference in someone's life
I am angry
Because I was drifted away
From what is really important
And idolising things that will never fill up my soul
I am angry
Because I blame the world too much
When it all comes to me
For I have the power to decide
To be shaped by the world
Or to be shaped by God
Monday, 13 January 2014
WHAT'S YOUR MOTIVATION??
Like what I have mentioned earlier, everyday I need to remind myself on what is the most vital part of my life.GOD. It's true that is easier said than done. But I just need the faith, discipline and the Holy Spirit to lead me towards my ultimate goal which is eternity with Jesus Christ. And everyday I pray that God will touch my heart and renew my spirit. To obey His words with a joyful heart. In Romans 3:31,"Well then, if we emphasise on faith,does this mean that we can forget about the law? Of course not! In fact, only when we have faith do we truly fulfil the law." This means that only when we have faith in Jesus Christ and love Him above all else, obeying His commandments will be our desires. And one of His wills in our life is to bring glory to His name. Therefore, we have no reason at all not to work hard at what we are doing, be it our studies, work, or even just the act of accompanying a lonely friend because God drives us to do our best for His glory. This is perfectly said in a quote by an anonymous, "God's providence and power are not excuses for being lazy. God wants us to work hard and then entrust the result to Him". How awesome is that? He not only requires us to be diligent and enthusiastic, but to believe that He will take care of the outcomes. He doesn't want us to worry about anything, instead instructs us to pray about everything.
Moreover, being the salt and light to the world arises my spirit to bless others in many ways as possible. Be it talking to people nicely, encouraging others, treating people well, helping those in need, being friendly and practising selflessness. By doing these, I hope that people can feel God's presence and comfort.And to show them that someone cares. Sometimes, some people may go against you because what you do is something different and considered as not "in" for the society. But like what S. Truett Cathy expounds, "You cannot be a people pleaser to everyone. Even the people who disagree with you will respect you for your convictions."
In conclusion, strive for excellence in whatever you are doing with the talents, ability, strength and knowledge that God has given you. Use these tools to do good to the world and improve lives worldwide. You need to know that a lot of people out there who are in despair and lack of opportunities to succeed. And it is your responsibility to reach out for these people and help them to be the next extraordinaires and history makers. God bless.